Where did i lose my energy at?
it's so fucking hard to channel all this energy in only one cup, too many thoughts, small space, and nonexistential skills. I have always wanted to write down my dreams right after I wake up, combine them together, and produce a mind-bending short film, just like all the twisted movies I fall in love with. my hands are too heavy, can't even pick them up, and create something as beautiful as what I see on all platforms every day. it's just sad that I know how amazing my mind is, that I create a whole music video from scratch whenever I listen to this song that resembles my feeling somehow. wish I could create something, something visual, that touches your heart, get out those early memories from under the ashes of our sad present, something that opens your eye wide shut. but damn, the competition is at its peak, everyone is talented and already pro with showing it off, all at one time. creativity shouldn't be a contest, but for an insecure person like me, if my skills do